What I have learned this year…
That there is more to life than what others think, that life should be lived making the best of it, not filling yourself with regret and sorrow. I learned that I am happier without drugs or alcohol, and it takes something deep inside away from me. I don’t need to drink anymore, I don’t need to do hard drugs, or do some pills. I don’t feel the need to smoke weed 24/7, but I still enjoy doing so on occasion. I don’t trip every week anymore, I do it on rare occasion… To do nothing more than to expand my mind, and try to become more aware of myself. I learned meditation is life changing, and a great form of therapy for myself. I learned to not take advantage of what you have in life, because in a split second it can all be taken away.
I finally learned to love my life. To accept myself for all my flaws, and to love myself too. I know I am not perfect, and I never claim to be. I have made more than enough mistakes in my past, but they made me who I am today. And I love the person I am right now. I am slowly getting closer to enlightenment… And it feels good, it feels right.
I’m about to cry, not because I am sad, but because for once I am truly happy. Sure I am not completely happy with my situation right now, but I am making the best of it. I wake up sometimes, and cannot believe what is happening. But I am happy, somewhere inside… I keep telling myself things will get better, just smile and make the best of what you have. And I do. I love this life. And one day my soul will move on to another body… And it will too be a beautiful life.